_ ぼくはどうも半身しか生きていない感じです。残りの半身は、人生とは関係ない場所にあって、そこでなにをしているのか対半身には伝えません。伝える気がないのではなくて、今のところ伝えようがないのでしょう。
人生の側では、どうしてこんな当たり前のことができないのか、しばしばそんなふうに言われます。できないはずがないだろう、と言われます。
人生を甘く見て、常識を軽く見ているのだろう、忠告としてそう言ってくれた人がいました。
甘くないし軽くもありません。
おそらく、こちらの半身が雪雪の人生を大切に思うよりもっと強く、死んでいる方の半身はなにかを、大切に思っているのだと思います。
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しなければ、と思うことは容易にできず、してしまったことはしてしまった後で、これがしたかったことなのだと分かります。見通しがなくて困ります。
これがいつまで続くものなのか、ぜんぜん分からない。
ぼくの生きている半身が、どうかして、持ち応えられるように、祈ります。
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人と人が対話を交わすとき、言葉だけが遣り取りされているわけではなくて、表情や仕草や気配、そして記憶が、互いに触れ合い、対話に介入し、ときには対話とは関わりのない次元で影響を与え合っています。
本と読者のあいだにもそういう次元があって、字面から読み取れる以上のものを知らず読ませられている。そういう力を、ことに豊饒に秘めた本があります。
ずっと後になって、なにかのきっかけで、受けた覚えのない印象が蘇り、しかしそのときには、なにがそれをぼくの心に残してくれたのか、分からなくなっていたりもするけれど。
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初めて読む本を読んでいるのに、前に読んだときよりずっとよく分かる。そういう印象を抱くことがあります。以前似たようなものに出会ったときの、捉え難さが体に残っていて、解けなかった過去の謎が遠くで、いま解かれゆく感触があるのでしょう。
レアード・ハントの『インディアナ・インディアナ』を読んでいるとき、幾度も想い出されてくる人がありました。
そして、初めて読むのに「前に読んだときよりずっとよく分かる」と思いました。
その人を理解しようとする努力が、いつの間にか『インディアナ・インディアナ』の近くにぼくを、運んでおいてくれたのだと思います。
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その人とはもう会うことはできないけれど、ひょんなことから知らなかったその人に出会う。
これからもきっと。
たとえば、またいつか、『インディアナ・インディアナ』を読み返すときなどに。
なにか謎が解かれゆくとき、心の中の見えない場所で、別の謎が共に解かれゆくようにして。
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初めて会った人に、ああ以前誰かに出会ったとき、この人にもすこし出会っていたのだな、と思うことがあります。そういうときは、初対面なのに、すでにいろいろなことを知っている気がします。
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